欲爱 meaning in Chinese

anger or hate

And her limbs turned molten at the thought , and she realized the immense difference between having a child to oneself and having a child to a man whom one s bowels yearned towards . the former seemed in a sense ordinary : but to have a child to a man whom one adored in one s bowels and one s womb , it made her feel she was very different from her old self and as if she was sinking deep , deep to the centre of all womanhood and the sleep of creation
想到了这个，她的四脚软怠了，她明白了有个自我的孩子，和有个全身全心欲爱着的男人的孩子，这其间是有天壤之别的，前者似乎是平凡的，但是从一个整个心欲崇拜着的男子得到孩子，那使她觉得和旧日的大不相同了。