了此残生 meaning in Chinese

shuffle [shake] off this mortal coil; get rid of this troublesome life; end this miserable life

Wretched and sinful as i am , i have had no other thought than to drag on my earthly existence in the sphere where providence hath placed me
象我这样一个悲惨的罪人，只有个念头，就是在上天已经安排给我的地域里了此残生。
Several times , when fortune pressed most harshly , he thought he would end his troubles ; but with a change of weather , or the arrival of a quarter or a dime , his mood would change , and he would wait
有几次，当命运逼得他走投无路的时候，他想他要了此残生了。但是，只要天气一变，或者讨到角分或角钱，他的心情就会改变，于是他又继续等待。