我却难以启齿 meaning in English

i cannot now i see them say

Admirer as i think i am of stars that do not give a damn . i can not , now i see them , say . i missed one terribly all day
尽管我自视为群星的崇拜者，它们满不在乎，现在我看群星，我却难以启齿，说我成天思念一颗星星。
Admirer as i think i am / of stars that do not give a damn , / i cannot , as i see them , say / i missed one terribly all day
译文对照:尽管我自视为群星的崇拜者, /它们满不在乎, /现在我看群星,我却难以启齿, /说我成天思念一颗星星